Bad Thoughts

I had bad thoughts today. While I was in a session with a couple who was trying to decide if they wanted to stay married, I found myself drifting away in my own personal thoughts. I was picturing myself telling them both to grow up and and act like adults. I hate to see couples come in and be so defensive and so spiteful and so mean to each other that they can't resolve any of thier problems. Normally, I would say a prayer while I was listening that heavenly Father would bless me to be able to pick out what in their interaction they need to correct and how to say it in a way that will resonate. Eventually I remembered my purpose, but for a long moment I was thinking about how juvenile and petty and ridiculous they were. I have to admit, I have had some really bad thoughts about people since I have been pregnant. I stopped being nice about 5 months ago and I feel really badly about it. I lost all sense of remorse for things I have said and thoughts I have had. It hasn't been horrible: I don't think I hurt anyones feelings. It has mainly been comments or reactions that are out of character. I don't want to sound like I turned into a witch. In my pregnancy book, it said that you don't necessarily become emotional when pregnant but the hormones that are racing through your body act as a truth serum, possibly resulting in your emotions being expressed much more explicitly. I consider myself a pretty even tempered person, especially as I have gotten older, but now I just let everything out when people get on my nerves....especially people who consistently do dumb things. They are out there and they do exist. I think that some people's earthly challenge is stupidity. Those are the kind of thoughts that go on through my head quite frequently. When I stop myself, I realize that this is not a nice thing to say, and that people are not stupid, they just do things differently than I do and that is okay. That is the therapist part of me. I do feel compassion for people. I know it sounds like I don't have any for my clients, but it's just because I don't talk about those that I pray for every night or that I hug after every session.I am not a mean person..I just like to blog about the things that make me stop and think for a minute. No one ever asks me what is going on in my head, so I have to tell someone. If I have offended anyone over the last seven and a half months, or acted completely insensitive, I apologize. Hopefully I will be back to my old self again sometime soon and you will all forgive me.